The moment comes when you cannot do anything.
You cannot say anything.
You cannot think anything.
There is no rational reasoning or simple encouragement you can give.
There is however, a sickening feeling that nestles in your stomach that makes you tear up. If you are lucky, you can lock yourself in your bedroom, hunch down on the floor, and cry to Jesus or pour yourself out on the alter at church, with the lights off, and doors locked.
What does the minister of the Gospel do when this moment comes? Do you blame God? Do you pray to God? Do you mull over Scripture until something jumps off the page? Do you change your curriculum? Do you change your programming? Do you give up?
No, with tears in your eyes, you humbly come before God to pour out your heart to Him until there is nothing left, you pick up your sword as you stand, and go to battle.
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. 14 Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. 16 In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; 17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, 18 praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints. Ephesians 6:10-18 (ESV).
This passage has never rang more true that it does tonight. Tonight, I believe I finally understand this passage and the implications thereof and is my resolve to do battle. Not just for me, but for those under my care and in my circle of influence, as Paul states in 1 Peter 5:2, to shepherd the flock as an example and as Proverbs 27:23 states, to “know the condition of your flock and pay attention to your herds.”
There is a battle that rages on in each of us, and our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and darkness. Satan wants us dead. He wants us to turn our backs away from God and follow after him and he does so cunning and swiftly, thus we need to be on guard and alert, mindful of his schemes (2 Corinthians 2:11, NIV). He is the great deceiver of what God says and how God views us. He convinces us that we are not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, for anyone to love us, let alone God. He binds us in chains of our past, constantly reminding us that we are failures and that our secrete sins are unique only to us and are too shameful to ever admit to anyone so that we can be free of this bondage in our lives. Those sins are the ones that keep us from fully trusting in God and coming to Him.
Even through all of our baggage, our fears, our doubts, our questions, our inadequacies, our sin, Jesus beckons us to come. Jesus tells us to come to him, all who are weary and heavy laden and He will give us rest (Matthew 11:28). Rest. Rest from the battle, rest from the struggle. Not only will He give us rest, but He gives us the victory! “But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ” 1 Corinthians 15:57 (ESV). Jesus defeated sin and Satan once and for all and there is a day coming that He will destroy Satan forever! But until that day, we must be watchful! Oh Christian, we must watch out for the schemes of Satan!
But at times, that is not enough. It is not enough to watch or take care to fall into his traps. We must do battle. We must prepare ourselves and actively battle. To do that, we must engage in war, and it will come! Will we be ready when that time comes?
As a Minister of the Gospel, this has become a new revelation. In Christian circles, in churches, we are taught basic truths of Christianity at best and nothing more. In essence, we have been taught that 2+2= 4. (2) God sent Jesus down to earth to die for our sins. He did that through dying on a cross and resurrecting from the grave three days later. (+2) He is coming again to bring those who believe in Him home and judge the world and those that do not believe in Him. (=4)In the meantime, do you believe in Him? He offers eternal life and forgiveness of sins. We know the story and have the basics down. But where the rubber meets the road is, is how does this affect daily life? How does Jesus dying on the cross for my sin and being a Christian help me with major decisions in my life, the loss of friends, the death of a parent, failing a class at school, feeling like a screw-up, the temptation of sin, the enticement of entitlement? There is no application, no practical preparation for war being taught. We know why Jesus came, but we do not know what to do with Him afterwards. We do not know how He is supposed to fit neatly into our neat little lives. Granted, we surrender to Him and He plans and leads our lives because we have submitted our will to Him and our lives then fit to His. But students have not been taught how Jesus applies to them, especially when it comes to the “tough stuff” or the cultural norms. There is a disconnect.
We are sending students and adults out into the world to fight a battle that they are not prepared for. When the battle comes, will they be wounded and surrender? Will they become wounded and need healing to stand and fight again? Or will they be captured and become a P.O.W to Satan’s demise that wars against us? Throughout ministry, there are many that flood the mind who have enlisted, and when faced with their first battle, became wounded and surrendered completely. Their rationale was that God does not care for me because I became wounded, so I quit. Others have been captured and have been P.O.W’s slowly giving up hope of breaking free from their prison of sin and being rescued and brought home. Some have been wounded repeatedly with no end in sight, but have gone to the great Healer, and come back ready for battle.
The moment described at the beginning of this post comes from when you as the shepherd of the flock, hear an eyewitness report of a battle that one of your sheep are fighting and they are starting to lose. They do not see how God can keep them safe and whole. They question their lives, their meaning, their purpose, and their identity of who and whose they are. Satan has enticed them, played with their minds and emotions, manipulated them to think that they are something and someone else. They are becoming a P.O.W and are afraid that they never will recover. They also were unprepared for battle as they knew the plan, but did not have a strategy or the armor to defend themselves. As they are attempting to fight back, the shepherd has to also fight back, stronger and more tactically with them. The greatest reminder to the shepherd defending their flock and their sheep, is that the Chief Shepherd watches and cares and fights for both of them, and will equip them as they do battle.
As the battle rages on, the minister of the gospel needs to take their place in battle, on their knees before the Lord, interceding for their flock at all times, being on guard themselves, so that they can lead their flock through battle victoriously, with sword raised high, tears in their eyes, and the cry of the minister:
8 Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 9 Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. 10 And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. 11 To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen. 1 Peter 5:8-11 (ESV).